Interests:I have very wide interests: Literature [Shakespeare], art, music, history like Renaissance stuff…law [Human rights and marital] social work like helping foster kids n stuff like that. I also love anything Spanish…the culture, language, and history. I’ve got this strange interest in horoscopes, palmistry, dream interpretation, tarot reading etc
Being flexible makes me a mix of everything. Expertise:I’m a shoulder to cry on and an ever willing helping hand. I am a benevolent person. Just love to help and I don’t expect anything in return…just a little thanks will do.
I can Write, do public speaking in english and malay, dance hip hop, salsa, whatever dance, sing [well kinda]
I can get pretty playful at times...
Duhh...I can doo all the things a human can..hehe Occupation:Student
I woke up today…awakened from one of those dreams which will make you so disturbed for the rest of the day thinking about it’s ending…anyway I rolled out of bed and timed myself exactly half an hour to get dressed and prepared, armed with my usual frozen Milo and Dad’s French toast [darn, no cinnamon!], as well as keeping my handphone on silent mode to prevent any disturbance…well Si Wei was the culprit who woke me up after my endless chat with David till 1a.m which drained every last drop of credit I had…
What was I prepared for?
Only to watch ‘Bride and Prejudice’ the movie!
It started at sharp 11 and you have no idea how angry I was at Astro for not displaying any darn subtitles…grrr [It was a Hindi Movie, do I look like I’m from Delhi?!]
Anyway the movie was still really cool, now I’m aiming to watch Mistress of Spices.
At 1p.m sharp, my parents began to get on my nerves…they insisted I follow them to watch ‘Open Season’ the movie…I’m 16 for crying out loud! Talking animals ain’t gonna do me any good, besides I wanted to watch ‘John Tucker Must Die’
Well it wasn’t as though they were gonna be all understanding, so heck yeah I had to tag along like a helpless bunny!
We went all the way to Bangsar for lunch which to my opinion was really silly just because the movie was delayed till 7p.m…well we went there and during all the car rides I was mute and dumb, all thanks to my wonderful mp3 player and Planet Shakers…hehehe
We came home to freshen up and I went online to meet my AP friends…Jen and Envelope [Lopey] was online today…we terrorized the cbox and the chatroom! Lopey treats me really well for a guy who is living up to be a bad ass…did I mention that Jen is the coolest lesbian around!
Then we went for the movie, I got a seat overlooking a couple from my school who was cuddling and mushying…and pathetic me was sitting next to an empty seat…grr…
Here comes the good part of the movie, the empty seat next to me was occupied within a few moments later by this cute guy! Hehehe
The movie wasn’t all that bad…it was pretty funny and the guy and I were like exchanging looks and smiles…*blushes*
Okay so I’ll never see this cute red shirt guy ever again…but hey at least he kept me company with his body language…lol
Well that’s the end of my day…not that miserable as I expected it to be…
Now I’m chatting with Sean...the best way to end a day! J
Because I really want to remain silent…another word from me could result mass destruction…
I don’t know what’s wrong…why is everything going differently…my conscience isn’t clear…it’s so messed up that my mind can’t coordinate the proper response to a situation.
This is the most important exam of the year…why can’t my head remain straight for at least another 3 weeks…
My boyfriend is a lousy romantic…I can accept that…but after seeing his name and another girls name written all over his text book before…I get all woozy and so mad at him. I mean do I have the right to be angry with him…its not my fault he hasn’t shown much affection towards me…heck I can’t be jealous…that is just not in my vocabulary
My tuition teacher is driving me insane [I’m already half insane] she thinks I can do everything…I can do anything but not everything…its just unfair…okay so what David said is true…if every inch of the world was fair, we would all die and yeah its true because Jesus died to wash away our sins therefore if the world was fair we should all be dead too…somehow that philosophy doesn’t calm my angry head much…I’m so frustrated I don’t know what can cool me down…
One heck of a discovery: I rely on people to be a person…its like I’ve grown to adapt to my environment so much that I’ve lost the capability to be myself without depending on my environment. If my surroundings are tensed and tempestuous then so am I. If my surroundings are joyful and pleasurable then so am I.
Am I turning into a morbid, gothic person…I don’t know about gothic but I keep thinking about dying, murder, vampires, blood, eternal sleep etc. gosh, what am I turning into??
Hurricanes are name after me.
I am strong. I am tempestuous.
I am sophistication personified.
Courage has become my second nature.
I may not be able to read maps sometimes.
But at least I can ask for directions.
I love shoes, one pair is never enough.
Dancing is my passion. There’s nothing I can’t do.
Backwards and in high heels.
I am woman, hear me roar.
The text above was adapted from the UOB Lady’s card advertisement…the text definitely applies to me in many ways right now the only part of the text which seems to have a great déjà vu effect on my current life situation.
"
I may not be able to read maps sometimes.
But at least I can ask for directions."
Being an art major, I have the sheer tendency of looking at things beyond its optical view.
Thus, if you are a normal viewer, the above sentence would mean exactly as it says. However, to me it means that sometimes a woman may lose her way through the cunning ups and down of life, but she is never afraid to gather up her courage and ask for help and advice.
Now the thing is, I can’t read my own life map now, so I’m obviously lost. Question is, can I ask for directions and not get lost again? You see, I’ve told myself once that I can’t keep running to my friends every time something blows out of proportion, and I haven’t because I’ve been trying to fix things on my own. Now I just don’t know if I should ask for help.
All I can say is, I don’t need anymore trouble whatsoever. My bowl of mashed up feelings and sliced up thoughts are just full to the brim…its going to overflow soon…
Well, the morning had its usual tuition terror…but after that things were pretty cool…I think…
So what did happen after the Brain Drain episode...
Mum took me to Summit for the fastest gift shopping ever!
I took half and hour to dress up…ended up pretty but a little heavy on the accessories
Came fashionably late to McD and it actually was a good thing
Gave my most sweetest smile to my friends and my boyfriend and that was when things took a rather lame turn
My boyfriend couldn’t even look me in the eye…he didn’t say much…but his arm was sort of around me
That’s when I discovered that our friends…Nathan and his sister knew that we were a couple.
His friends were pushing him, scolding him, lecturing him to act like a proper boyfriend to me.
Honestly, I’ve heard of shy, but yesterday evening was like Blur Zone for my darling
Towards the end of the party, he held my hand tight…make that really tight…he asked me if I was angry with him
Okay, lets get real here! He is my boyfriend but the way he acted was like a pathetic guy who had a freaking crush on me!
I was on the verge of tears when he and his so called sister got all mushy…I wanted to just stand up and tell her "Hey, don’t mess with my man!" but being the proper and formal female…I just stood up and walked off.
I seriously couldn’t take it…fortunately I was able to hold back my tears…that’s when I discovered how filthy the bathroom was!
So, it was 6.30PM..and our so called date ended without a single mushy moment except him squeezing the life out of my poor hand
I got home and I was just angry with him…I really liked him but it was as though he’s just so clueless to be able to do anything!
After the date which almost made me give up on guys:
I took another half hour to dress up for the dinner party
I entered the huge canopy, searching for my friends…
I was early there so my company was a cute little baby girl who was playing with me
Then I saw the boys, Chin Yau, Sean, Kok Xien, and Kenny!
We hung out for a while…then Elena came!
Everyone started walking in and we were all excited to see each other
Some brought their boyfriends and at that moment I wanted to just call my boyfriend and ask him to get his ass here a.s.a.p
Instead I called Revan and he told me he was on the way! I was so overjoyed.
Then the moment came, I was like Wow! This guy has got some looks…but he was so shy around me!
It was really great to see him…my friends…make that my whole class were so excited to see him…that’s a shock!
His friends were real goofs…
He asked me if I was with Vemall and I admitted it…but a weird feeling in me was really regretting!
His friends wanted me to help them to get Vicki and Mandy’s phone numbers! I told them if they give me Revan for the night I’ll help!
Revan was really shy…was he competing with my boyfriend for the Shyest Boy In The World title!
Even though Revan was definitely boyfriend material, I had to let him go…
Revan was a playboy…he wanted freedom and if I was with him…he won’t get any besides I have one Clueless Boy to watch over!
Anyway, the night ended a little too fast to my liking but it made me happy…even though I couldn’t sleep when I got home because I was really missing my darling
In a nutshell:
Indians guys aren’t all that bad! But honestly shy boyfriends are insanely torturing
Patience is the only option in my relationship
I have such fantastic friends!
At parties, you don’t go for the food…you go for the people!
I didn’t dance at all!
3 days to Sweet 16!
There is a big question mark between me and my boyfriend
Red signifies sexy!
Its 10am…I’m so tired and I need my warm bath…please call me darling…sigh…
